Monday, 8 September 2008

The days just keep coming....

I feel bereft today.

My little girl is no longer a little girl. She has started school. And my baby boy is no longer a baby. He has started pre-school. Both on the same day. And my dear husband has gone to Holland for the week. So I'm sitting here in a silent house wondering what to do with myself until pick-up time.

It's very strange. When you are in the throes of life with babies, the focus of your world narrows on them and you feel as though the time is going to last forever. (Probably because you are awake for most of it.) And you wish and wish for some time to yourself to indulge in something just for you.

And then suddenly the time is gone. All those craft projects, trips out and activities that you didn't do and saved for another day; well, there won't be another day. Until the school holidays that is. And all those indulgent things that you wished you had time for suddenly don't seem so attractive any more.

And you find youself wanting more than anything in the world to be able to stop time, and cuddle up with your babies on the sofa. But those days just keep coming.....

You just watch, tomorrow I'll be blogging on here about them going off to university.

4 comments:

Jonathan said...

Don't worry, you'll finally have more time for yourself, which you deserve so much ! ;-)

claires inner world said...

Jonathan - Yes, perhaps I might have time to reply to that lovely handwritten letter you sent us...!

Ernest de Cugnac said...

The best thing is, each stage turns out to have very good things about it. My girls are 25 and 27 now, and I'm still enjoying them.

Grandchildren would be nice, but hey, I always wanted the moon on a stick.

claires inner world said...

Ernest - Good things come to those who wait. (and drop lots of hints!)